“And the curtain of the temple was torn in two.” Luke 23:45

The question popped in my head the other morning as to what tore my curtain? What event took down the separation in my heart between God and I, making Him approachable? Another way to say it, I guess is what changed our relationship from me knowing about God to trusting Him? It made me stop and think. The answer would be that it was a gradual tear, one event after another where my thoughts, desires, words and actions began to change. With each event the “false gods” I had depended on were taken away and each time I found God to be trustworthy and loving. Pretty soon the curtain was gone and the invitation to “approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need.” (Hebrews 4:16) became real.

One of the hard things about being a mom is knowing each of our children have moments in their lives where they need grace and mercy. They always have a choice to go with confidence to their Heavenly Father’s throne or cover their need with worldly things and damaging behaviors. We can lead them, but I am seeing that showing them is best. And each time they run to their dad or give him a hug, I catch a glimpse of the choice they will make as they get older.