I have this little girl who finds her way to me every morning. She’s still small enough to curl up tight with me in my chair. We talked yesterday about how she would one day be much too big for me to hold. She assured me this would never happen. It’s not just morning times she comes, but all through out the day. She comes up beside me, gets real close and whispers she loves me for no reason at all. I see her coming and it just makes me smile. I like the way she calls me mama too.
This morning when her sleepy eyes met mine, she asked for me to give her a story, not to read one like we usually do. What an interesting request, but it sure made my mind race. I would like nothing better than to give this child a story to read on real pages. Perhaps one day I will, but in the meantime I will keep telling her the story already written by her Creator. If she knows this story, she can trust Him with the one He has scripted for her before she was even born.
Maybe we are all a bit lost in our own stories right about now. We did not see this page or chapter coming and it is hard to make sense of it all. What will we do? Will we fuss and complain the days away or will we take some time to hear from our Creator, the Author of our story? I like the example we see with the woman who met Jesus at the well. After she spends sometime with Jesus talking, she goes back to her village and gives the best invitation. “Come see a man who knew about the things I did, who knows me inside and out.” (John 4:29 MSG). Because of her visit with Jesus and the invitation she extended, “many of the Samaritan’s from that village committed themselves to him because of the woman’s witness.”(vs 39). This woman with an interesting story, that actually included 5 husbands and who was currently living with another man, found Him to be the One she could not live without.
This woman had no idea when she went to get water that day that she would meet Jesus sitting by the well. The best part is He knew. He knew her story from before men were ever a thought in her mind as a source of fulfillment. And He choose this moment to interrupt her endless search in exchange for Living Water. She could have chosen to keep tasting that which would never truly quench the thirst of her heart, but she did not. And she did what those of us who have met Him can’t help but do, we tell everyone!
So maybe as the day winds down or you watch the sunrise, you might take a few minutes to consider the invitation He offers you. He knows your story and can hardly wait to give you real meaning, purpose and love like you have never known. The hard pages, He asks you to trust Him and it is only possible when you see His heart. And if they seem to painful, take a look at the cross. This is the price He paid for our sin; and not only the sins we have committed, but the sins committed against us. So, come to Him and let Him give you your story. I have a feeling you will make Him smile too.
Like any sickness, it starts slow. One minute you are fine, but then you do not feel quite right. Before you know it, down you go and you are rendered weak. If it is serious, you are hospitalized. More progression and machines come to your aid to keep you functioning. Monitors are put into place and your vitals are checked regularly. You might recover and return back to your home. Perhaps you are able to leave the hospital, but rehab is the next step to healing. Then there is the other possible outcome, death. This was how it went with my mom. What started as a little image in her eye, became much more serious. Ultimately the cancer spread and she ended up dying. This cancer was not the result of her sin or by any choice of her own. She noticed a problem and sought medical attention. The Lord had other plans for my mom and now she is completely healed and sees Him face to face. Sin and sickness have no hold on her now. Praise God! Even though I miss her very much, I rejoice knowing I will see her again.
The words we speak, think and type often feel like a song to me that reflects our hearts. When our focus is in the proper place, we find we can actually sing bravely, calmly and with joy. Might you need a new song today? Perhaps your song has sounded a bit fearful, critical or wavered. I know this has been true of me at times. When I have lost focus, my song changes dramatically. The song we sing though out the day affects everyone we come in contact with. We could all use some uplifting music right about now. Will you join in and be a voice that redirects our gaze?
This was not at all what I had pictured. Distant learning is not, in my opinion, homeschooling. When your home has always been a school in a sense, this seemed a bit of an invasion. These were not my lesson plans, material chosen by me or a good use of our time. Again, I was ready to quit and felt justified with a million good arguments. Then reason entered the room, in the form of my practical and wise husband. He went online and cut through all the information and simplified it all. He is very comfortable with technology and I am not. He reads books on his phone for goodness sakes! To me, a book without physical paper is not something I can embrace. However, I am so thankful for his strengths, for they are not mine.
Open to the book of Esther and watch as one man plots to destroy an entire race. It seems to begin with an intense hatred of one man and carries over to the Jewish people. Mordecai was the hated man. He was also a Jew and could be found near the king’s gate. He heard a lot of life saving information in this particular spot. He was also the uncle and guardian of a young woman named Esther. Through a series of events, Esther ends up in the king’s palace in a 12 month beauty regiment. The king was in search of a new queen and Esther was chosen. Per Mordecai’s instruction, which she had always obeyed, she keeps her nationality hidden.
Another time the Lord has Joshua choose twelve men to each pick up a stone from the middle of the Jordan River. The same river where the water had literally piled up and allowed them to cross safely (see Joshua 3 and 4). “These stones are to be a memorial to the people of Israel forever.” (4:7). Twelve stones to remember this mighty act that only God could have done. I think I would have been tempted to pick up a small rock and put it in my pocket while I walked through. It is always good to have something to remind us of the faithfulness of God; especially the further we get away from the big moments, it helps to have a visual.
With that in mind, what steals our peace? Do we put up a fight? Do we even know how to fight? I can say that listening to the news often is one sure way to send our peace running out the door. Perhaps if we turned away from the news and dove into scripture, peace would tie itself to our hearts with a sure double knot. When anxious thoughts come to mind, have a verse or two handy to steady your heart. What about this one? “The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.” (Psalm 118:6). Sometimes just the reminder that we are never alone is all we need to calm our hearts. Here is another good one. “They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the LORD.” (Psalm 112:7). If you are worried about finances, maybe this will put things into perspective; “And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19). I know I have sometimes put the label of need on what really is a want. However, I have a few stories where even a want was provided in the sweetest ways.
With these thoughts still on my mind, I came across a wonderful quote that summed up my heart. Jonathan David Helser said, “The wilderness has a way of revealing what you really believe about God.” If I were to stick with my analogy from yesterday, I would say that the crashing waves have a way of getting to your true belief. During days of ease, your beliefs are true, but not always tested in my opinion. Perhaps we have been given these days to find out if He is our trusted Shepherd. Because when you know and it is your deepest belief, it changes absolutely everything.
When I read it again today, I thought about the song by We the Kingdom called “Dancing on the Waves”, which is based on this verse. It is beautiful and one I have listened to over and over. What was really fun was seeing this group do a video of this song on the stage at none other than Windy Gap. It was actually on that same stage that I saw my now husband before we even went on that first date. It is fun to remember and I love that a verse can spark such a smile. The song will make you smile too and makes you feel like the words are actually being sung over you. I picture myself like a ballerina, dancing and spinning over waves. The water is of no concern, nor the height of the waves, just sweet music and precious peace that washes over my heart.
My parents had been married a couple of years when I came along. That first time parenting feeling is something all generations can relate too. They did the very best they knew to do and I see that now. Sometimes it takes years into parenting for us to realize that truth. One of the things that I am most thankful for is that my parents always made sure we were involved in church. Because of the sweet church we spent my early years in, a firm foundation of biblical knowledge was put into place. In this same church, my dad used his artistic abilities and would do chalk drawings of Bible stories during the main service. I remember being proud during those times that he was my dad. He continued to perfect those drawing skills and for decades has designed furniture. You might even have some of his work in your home.